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Post by Haley James Scott on Dec 11, 2006 15:16:05 GMT -5
"Good to be awake." I said looking into her Brown eye's. "Yea. I thought I had known what i wanted so much and then I didn't." I said looking at Brooke. "You know when you think you want one thing and you find yourself having it but then you realize the one thing you wanted wasn't really the one thing you wanted." I asked looking at Brooke. I put my hands through my hair.
"She good. I just don't know whats up with everything here. So much has changed. you've Changed." I said looking at her. I couldn't help but want to lay out all my feelings on the line. "You know. I wouldn't have thought in a million years you would move on. Just forget about us, But it looks like you have. I really hope your happy with Lucas Peyton. I wish you two all the best." I said getting some Coffee.
"No!." I said looking at Nathan. "Just because, Some Jerk decided to Run someone in the road down, it isn't your fault. it would have happened to me or someone else but it would have happened. I looked as Nathan put his hand on mine. It felt so good. I looked at Nathan asking me that. "I had to. I couldn't let you be hurt. Nathan. I would have given my life for you. Without you my life isn't worth anything. If it came down to it. I would rather you have a life with our Child and you Being save. I need you to know that. Yea. I love you so much." I said looking at Nathan. The OBGYN came inside the room. "Hello. Mrs and Mr. Scott. what were going to do here is simple. We are going to check your Baby Heart. With the Trauma you went though you were lucky nothing happened. But here we go. "Nathan. You might want to go near Haley. So you can see the monitor." The Doctor said. I looked at Nathan Holding onto his hand.
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Post by chriizzz on Dec 11, 2006 16:04:56 GMT -5
I smiled as Lucas talked. I knew exactly the feeling. "Yeah, I know what you mean" I said. It was like I broke up with Lucas cause that was what I wanted at that moment, then later I realized that wasn't what I wanted at all. I looked at Lucas hair. It was longer now, I haven't really payed attention to it before. I changed position in the chair so I could see him better. It was like dejavu when I sat here the last time waiting for him to wake up. That was right before he broke up with me...
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Post by Peyton Sawyer on Dec 11, 2006 16:25:46 GMT -5
"Good." I said taking some coffe.I ghot speachless.I didnt lknow what to answer him back.No i as not over him.Buty I couldent do anything about my feelings.I had to protect Lucas,"Jake." I said wanting to cry.But I keept it together."Yea.We are happy." I said turning around and walked away.Then all of the sudden it was like something took over me.I turned around and ran over to Jake kissing him, like back in the good old days.I looked into his eyes.."Im so sorry.I didnt mean that.."I said but I did.And now I had manege to hurt him again.All over again.I stept away from him.."Im not over you.I never will be." I tried to get myself together."I asumed I never would see or hear from you again.What do you want tme to do.Live my life all alone untill the day i die because I cant be with you?! You have no idea what I have been going through when you were in Savannah!..I almost got raped and killed..Did you know that? Luke was the one who was there to save me.My own brother didnt want anything to do with me, But Luke maneged to gewt him to talk to me..My mom died..Where were you?!" I said starting to cry.."Who are you to come here and tell me how I feel!?" I said breaking down.ALl my anger came out at ones and It all got taken out on Jake.I knew it was not fair but I couldent control it.
"No.Haley it wouldent have happend if I just could have gotten involved." I said as she cut me of.I was filled with guilt."I still wouldent forgive myself if something happend..If you didnt make it.I cant aford to loose you.Not now.Not when things are finally working out for us" I said as the doctor came in..' I walked over to Haleys other side so I could see the monitor.I looked at Haley almost holding my breath in hopes that our baby was alive. If he was dead it was all my fault.If he was dead I had killed my own son and daunte all in one night.Haley would never forgive me if she found out.
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Post by Haley James Scott on Dec 12, 2006 7:52:39 GMT -5
I looked at Brooke and Smiled. "Good." I said and Smiled at her again. "So..I'm actually glad you Stopped by here. We really need to talk. I haven't told anyone. this yet and i wanted you to be the first person i tell." I said and looked at Brooke. She was so different from i remembered. Was i dreaming or was it reality. "Brooke. You've Changed me so much through the years. I can see i changed so much since knowing you. What. I'm trying to say is i think i made a mistake." I said looking into Brooke's eyes.
"Good. I'm really happy for you two. Really. I'm." I said looking at Peyton. then She ran over to wards me and kissed me. I kissed her back not wanting to Stop. I could feel everything we had just coming back full speed ahead. "It's OK. I wanted it as much as you did and now that you did that i know you wanted it like i did. Peyton. Why are you lying to yourself. Pretending to have feelings for Lucas when you know it's Guilt." I said looking at her. "Peyton. You knew when we first got together that i would have to put my daughter first. I have never lied about that. I have never lied to you at all. but I'm here and you should have trusted in me when i told you i would always come back to you. But you gave up." I said putting my coffee down. I looked at her again. "I knew. Day's after. I didn't want to come back then. I couldn't i was in a Custody battle over Jenny. If i took off i would have been Arrested or have jenny taken away. Peyton i wanted to be here for so much on your life but i couldn't. you could have came down to Savannah did you..Once yes and what did i hear Lucas i love you. what did you want to do. Because I love you and i know you love me. If you don't love me anymore tell me and i well leave." I said looking into her eye's.
I looked at Nathan when he said that. involved. I didn't know what he meant and when i wanted to asked him the doctor was already there. I still had that word in my mind though. what did he mean. I looked at Nathan and then the monitor. holding my Breathe and bitting my lip. the Doctor put the ultra Sound on my Stomach and moved it around. We couldn't hear anything at first i was getting a little worried then all of a sudden i heart something. "Is that the heart beat." I asked the doctor hoping and praying it was. "Yes. Your baby is fine Haley. you have one Strong healthy baby Boy." She said I looked at Nathan and kissed him Quickly
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Post by chriizzz on Dec 12, 2006 10:13:35 GMT -5
I looked at Lucas. listening to what he had to say. I looked at his perfect blue eyes. i missed those eyes. I missed him. I smiled at him. "you've changed me too" I said. "I'm a better person because of you" I added and smiled again. Then I heard that he thought he had made a mistake. what mistake was he talking about ? was it about Peyton ? I thought in my head. "What mistake?" I asked with a calm voice. I wished with all my heart that he wanted me back, but I guess that wouldn't be fair to Peyton. I changed position again so I sat even closer to him...
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Post by Peyton Sawyer on Dec 12, 2006 10:43:13 GMT -5
I looked at Jake."I know..Im sorry,Jake.Its not that I blame you for anything that happend to me..I know you would have stayed if you could.I just..I wish you could have been there." I said then I realised.I had been lying to him ever since he came back to Tree Hill..even to myself.I had been kidding my own feeligs.I loved Lucas but I was not inlove with him.I loved him like my best friend."I know. I just.I was hurteing so much, and I feelt alone.The only person who were acually talking to me was Lucas." I nodded drying my tears away."Im sorry Jake.Iv been really selfish i didnt mean to say all these things to you.did you get Jenny?" I asked.I really wanted him to have her. she was like a daugther to me."I didnt know if you wanted anything to do with me after what I said.What I did to you..I just wish things werte less complecated." I looked back into Jake eyes."yes.I do still love you.Never stoped loving you." I said still looking at him.."Dont go." I said in a begging voice.
I waited for something but didnt hear anything.It was the most scary moment in my whole life.Then all of the sudden I heard something It was low but I did hear something.I looked at Haley and smiled at her, then kissed her.I still held on to her hand.I was so happy I didnt know what to do.Both the baby and Haley was ok.
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Post by Haley James Scott on Dec 12, 2006 14:15:59 GMT -5
I looked back at Brooke. I needed to tell her that she was my world. I knew that now. I didn't want to be just friends anymore. I never wanted to see her with another Guy. But i broke her heart when i told her yes we should only be friends. "That i didn't Choose you. I don't know why i did what i did but i did and I'm sorry about that. If you can't forgive me i understand. I just thought you need to know. " I said looking at Brooke, Waiting for her Reaction. I kept looking at Brooke. Waiting for something to happen anything. I just kept looking until Brooke said something.
"You should. I wasn't here to protect you like i said i always would have. I should have been here to beat the living Crap out of that guy. when i heard you almost got assaulted i wanted to come back here so bad and protect you from the world from everyone. But i knew me coming down again and leaving in only a matter of days would hurt you more then anything." I said looking at Peyton. I looked at Peyton. I wanted to tell her everything that has happened. "No. I actually Gave up half of my Rights to Nikki's parents. I couldn't do without you anymore. that's why i came back here. "Really." I asked looking at him. "You don't want me to leave so you can stay with Lucas."? I asked again.
I put my head down and then Started to Cry into Nathan's Shoulder. "Our baby. He's OK. He;s really OK." I said and cried some more. I couldn't believe it. I had my baby i had my life and i had everything else i wanted...."I'll leave you two alone." The doctor said. I held onto Nathan body i didn't want to let go. i just wanted to hang onto him forever.
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Post by chriizzz on Dec 12, 2006 14:26:48 GMT -5
I looked at Lucas. I had hoped so much he would say that, that when he did I kind of wish he didn't. I kept picturing him and Peyton together. "You have no idea of how much I wanted to to say that" I said. "But I thought you were with Peyton" I added. I knew Jake was back, and that kind of made everything worse for Peyton. I really didn't know what to say. I wanted Lucas back in my life so bad.
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Post by Peyton Sawyer on Dec 12, 2006 15:42:47 GMT -5
"you did what you belived was right, Jake..They got him.By the way..They got him a week ago.So im safe now..Do you still wanna be here and protect me?" I asked wanting to know id he really meant it.."What? no..Im so sorry,Jake.I wish I could urn back the time a couple of months.I would never leave you two..I dont even know why I did.I sould have stayed..How much to you get to see Jenny?" I looked at him.He didnt look like before.He looked like he was tired of everything."no..I dont want you to leave.but right now.I cant break it of with Lucas.The doctor tould us that he cant go through stuff like that..Not now.He had been so good to me..I cant do that to him..Not now." I said I really wanted to be with Jake but I couldent just turn by back on Lucas when he needed me the most.
I held around Haley and kissed her head."yea.He is fine.We are all fine.." I couldent belive our luck.Nothing happend to the baby.From what the nurse could see he was fine.And so was Haley.The only thing I wanted now was to know that my brother was fine.I watched the nurse walke out of the room."thank you.." I said then turning to Haley and smiled at her.." I tould you, we are all gonna be fine."
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Post by Haley James Scott on Dec 13, 2006 6:32:32 GMT -5
I looked at Brooke, I had hurt her again and again. I could see she wasn't going to believe me when i said she was the only one for me. Maybe i was loosing my mind or something but Peyton wasn't the person for me. "I'm.. I was. I don't know Brooke. I seemed so sure that you weren't the girl for me. but it's like when my life was hanging on the line i realize. You are the one i want to be Standing next to me." I said looking at Brooke. I hoped she felt the same way as I did.
"Good. I'm glad to hear that." I said looking at her. I didn't want to leave ever again. but Peyton was the only reason i kept coming back to Tree Hill. If this was it for us i wouldn't even come back anymore. "Peyton...You know I do. But your with Lucas now and as much as i love you i just cant do that to someone. I can be your Secret. Sorry." I said looking at her. I wanted Peyton to Admit that she had feelings for more then she did with Lucas. "It's OK Peyton. I don't blame you for leaving. It was what you had to do. Um.. I got to see her on weekends. I wanted it that way. She's been though so much already." I answered. "Then i guess we are over. I cant be the other Guy Peyton and I wont be." I added.
"Fine." I said looking at Nathan. I knew he was keeping something from me. I didn't know what but i knew it was something. "Yea. You better watch out. I said that and i got hit i don't want you to get hurt." I said lighten up the mood. "So.. Um. do you mind telling me what you meant before. It's your fault."? I asked
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Post by Peyton Sawyer on Dec 13, 2006 11:13:52 GMT -5
I didnt want Jake to leave, but I didnt want to hurt anyone.I heard he tould me we were over.I had never thought about that. That we would be over.."Yea..Over.." I said in a low voice.I didnt want it to be over.I loved him so much.I couldent do this.I couldent not hurt anyone.It was not poible..Even if it was,I would just have hurt myself even more."No, Wai!" I said grabbing his hand.." I dont want it to be over..Ill talk to him.Jake Ill talk to him now..Try to explane." I said and looked at Jake.
I was not sure if I was gonna tell her or not. but She could find out sooner or later.It was better that she heard it from me."look.Remember when I asked my dad for the money?..Well he turned me down..I didnt get the money from him.I got it from the guy who did this to you..He wanted me to throwaway the champion ship but I didnt do it.thats why he tried to hurt me." I said waiting for her reaction
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Post by chriizzz on Dec 13, 2006 11:38:16 GMT -5
I loved Lucas, but it annoyed me that he could never make up his mind. If I was to get back together with him now, there's a big chance he'll be together again with Peyton next years. It suddenly seemed like a waste... "I don't know what to say. One minute you say you're the one for me, the next you say I'm not and now I am? You can't just go back and forworth between me and Peyton. It doesn't work like that. And she said she loves you, I can't do that to Peyton" I said. I didn't want to say it, but a part of me felt like he needed to know this. I missed him, I missed kissing him, I missed talking to him...
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Post by Haley James Scott on Dec 13, 2006 14:49:07 GMT -5
I looked at her, I hated doing this. I truly believed that I was always meant to be with her. But i could have been wrong. Maybe this was just going to be my life. Without Peyton...Without love. I looked at Peyton one more time and then turned around heading the other way. I could hear Peyton say no. Then feeling her hand on mine. Grabbing it. I turned around looking into her eye's again. "I didn't tell you it was over so you could break up with Lucas Peyton. I told you because i need some Closure. I cant keep doing this to you and myself. We need to be over once and for all. Even though it's going to kill me inside. It has to happen." I said pulling my hand away.
I looked at Nathan. I could see something was killing him inside. I really didn't see what he could keep from me that he couldn't tell me right now. He looked like he was hiding something bid. "I'm not going to find out you have a thing for Rachel right." I asked joking. Knowing that could never happen. I looked at him again listening to him talk. "Sure. You said he gave you the money he wanted to help us out. He did and it help in a big way." I said taken his hand. Then i heard it. "What. No. No. It can't be. Nathan you told me yourself that your dad Gave it to you. What do you mean the person who ran me down. Nathan. Do you know this person. I let go of his hand and hid my face. "Oh my God. Are you serious." I said looking at him. "No. You wouldn't lie to me. You wouldn't have put our Child at Risk. i mean OK Whatever i could have gotten hurt but our Child Nathan!." I said almost yelling. My Blood pressure going off the Roof. the heart monitor was going up too high. "No!. Nathan. I had to Grown up so fast since learning of this pregnancy and i thought you had too. Was i wrong!." I asked him.
I looked at Brooke. "You don't have to say anything. I just felt that you needed to know. I really don't care one way or another if it works out for me. I just couldn't live a lie anymore. I hope you understand." I said and heard her out. "Well it actually isn't your call on weather i stay with Peyton or not. I cant go on with Peyton when i truly love you i just cant." I added
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Post by chriizzz on Dec 13, 2006 15:21:53 GMT -5
"I think I made a mistake when I broke up with you... Cause I'm not over you. I'll never BE over you... I love you Lucas" I said. I got up from the chair. "I want to be with you... But I think you need to talk to Peyton about what's going on, one minute she's the one, and the next she's not... Don't tell me that, tell her that" I said and looked him in the eyes. his perfect eyes. I turned around and about to walk out of the room.
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Post by Peyton Sawyer on Dec 13, 2006 17:02:37 GMT -5
I looked at Haleys reaction.I knew it would be bad. But not like this.So was more disapointed and hurt then mad.."Im sorry.I..I never said i straight out that i got it from him..No..not really..look he was talking to me about Duke and all, he had contacts.And I really didnt think he was a bad guy.he said I could use my time to pay him back.But he just got worse..I just tried to do what was best for us.You were in a lot of pressure and worked too much.I had to do something." I feelt her letting go of my hand.It was worse that I could posible imagine.."I never thought he was gonna hurt any of us.I didnt think it would go that far..I knew I was ready for whatever he had in store for me.I never though that he could posible hurt you.." I said taking a deep breath.."There are one more thing." I said looking up at her..I didnt know how to say it.." I think I might have killed him..After the accident." I said with tears in my eyes, then hearing the heart monitor.."Haley, you need to calm down..Please!" I said I wished I could have waited untill she was better and out of the hospital.."Im sorry." I added..I didnt know what else In could answer her,I feelt so ashamed...
"Jake.Plese dont do this.." I cryed.."I wanna be with you, not Lucas. youre the one i love.Cant you understand that..Im never gonna get over you.Youre alwasy gonna be the first. the other guys will always be the second..Acually i dont think I can ever be with some one else again..I need you Jake..I will leave tree hill for you.Anything you want me..God Jake I love you.." I said pulling myself together..I turned around and walked over to Lucas room I had to tell him what I feelt.I couldent keep doing this to myself,Lucas or Jake..I had to show Jake how much I loved him.I would give my life for him.
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